Sunday, August 1, 2010
Why
can something be based on someone's deficiency? You start at the victim and work your way down. It's always something that you slip short of and quick change.
Apprehensive
I'm apprehensive about going to the dentist. I have black marks. Hopefully today my dad will take me to Wal-Mart and Winn-Dixie. I stayed awake all night again. Last time I missed seeing the museum again and IMAX. I just feel like I need to do things, like sort out my thoughts on my life. I need tarter paste or whitening. My dad has something called a water pic. It is in the teeth cleaning area I assume somewhere. It was like Crest or something. I have black stains in the back and I don't want any of my teeth pulled. I'll have to see what the dentist does. We are going to see the movie at 12:30, and it starts at 1:20. I wonder, I will probably get my Russian book and bring it. So it's 6 hours. It seems it's around 1 1|2 hour. I wonder if this is 3D too. I have to be careful to not throw up. I threw up once recently. The food just isnt' processed that quickly. I really kinda hope about getting a job. I don't know how my school grant worked out neither. It said something was wrong with a semester prior to my last, so I don't get it. I wonder if something changed or if I'm vague on it.
I think I'm gradually becoming more awake.
I don't feel like going to sleep now so I don't. I applied for 5 jobs. I feel pretty safe and honest to that extent. Eventually I will feel much better. My mom gets paid Monday and I will get my $100 allowance from her. Plus she's gonna work more because she loves teaching yoga. She also goes to a Chinese place where you can learn Chinese and has a course for college. Last semester she did it on "Alice in Wonderland." So I will get more info. on the star search casting. I can make it into movies and start getting a salary from that. I was gonna use my money, but I think I will reserve it for ordering pore strips and this. I could also get how to speak Dutch, but I'd rather have the pore strips in case. I found I have to use the pore minimizing stuff to keep from getting blackheads again and again. Also I wanted my dad to take me to Wal-Mart and Winn-Dixie. I guess he will. Maybe he'll drop off my brother first. I assume my mom is working while we watch the movie. Tomorrow, well today, we're seeing "Inception." It stars Leonardo DiCaprio. I picked it because I heard of it and it's number 1. I don't always do that. Last time we saw "Despicable Me" after we watched something else. We saw "The Sorcerer's Apprentice." I'm not even caught up with "Harry Potter."
Juggling Dreams
Art - I could do Art at Community College and finish General Studies. I could apply for UCF for the Animation degree. I could look for opportunity. I can also draw on my own for awhile first. I am in not in any way in a hurry before I feel more caught up on rest and some recreation ........... Music - I could do organ and practice somewhere else, unless I got a job and could afford an organ. ........... Singing - I could also do voice. I do singing on my own as well. Voice teachers interact and give you neat strategies to use. I wish I could be as cool and Julie Andrews. ........... Ballet - I could take ballet classes. If I learned to drive it would be better. ........... Acting - Or I could always study theater.
I wonder when I will go to bed.
It seems my mom didn't leave for work this time. I coincidentally walked out of my room, the garage, with a glass of water and my brother was going to use the restroom. He said oh it's 6:00. We're seeing Inception this weekend. My family doesn't often buy food. I imagine it's tight on money. Speaking of which of my $100 monthly allowance I will spend the $10 for star search casting. I can probably get into something good. With practice I'll really get up there. I don't really know if I would do well on a TV show. They seem to have more to remember. I watched the girl who was Alice on her show where she goes in and talks to a psychologist each episode. That's a lot to remember. I guess my dream is that I don't have to work and that I can wait to do acting. Something else that would make me happy is to finish sorting out my papers I used for online, like making sites or cute sock accounts or things I try out, there's shopping etc. I do feel funny going out in public. It's like I wanna be a movie actress but am considered shy, quiet, and nice in real life. For me being called exotic instead of Spanish is a compliment.
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